Finally, I found time to update this blog. I've been preoccupied with so many things lately, taking into consideration being a school girl; study, read, review, do crazy stuff. Well that's life.
I'm not in a good mood this afternoon, not sure why. Is this the result of being hyperactive in class? I don't think so. But maybe it has something to do with that. But I think it's more of being bothered about things in life. Like what I've said in my previous blogs, I am the type of person who's emotional and sensitive but I don't want to talk about that anymore here. I don't wanna be blogging about egoism or narcissism, that's far beyond my limit. And of course I don't want to indulge you with how I felt awhile ago. I want to confine you into something that is positive, something that is inspiring, something that would please you.
It's really cool how songs could make you feel better. I know many of us also went through the same situation. When we feel like we're falling apart and there's no outlet to efface the negativity within us, not even crying could make us feel better, there are things we do to overcome these distressing situations such as talking to a friend, screaming at the top of our voice, not talking to anyone or listening to music. I would focus more on the last idea.
There are songs which precisely explains how we feel inside. There are songs which enlighten us. Some songs stab our wound even more and some heal them instantly. There are different kinds of songs we listen to, depending on how we feel and how we want it to affect us. For some people, when they are depressed and grieved, they are more likely to listen to sad songs. Why? Not because they want to make themselves feel even worse but rather they want to express how they really feel deep within. They are the ones who want to release all the bad vibes in them by triggering what they feel inside and afterwards they would feel far better. On the other hand, there are also those who make use of what we call reverse psychology: the opposite of what is suggested. Instead of triggering they tend to counterattack it. So basically when they feel down, they'd rather listen to happy songs which would cheer them up. This would make them feel better.
So where do I belong? Well either of the two I think. But one thing is for sure...One of my shock absorbers is listening to worship songs. Simply because it brings peace and pleasure to me especially when it comes to the underlying meanings in every lines of the songs. I consider it is a message from God put into a melodic pattern in order to make it more pleasing. In the same way it is also an answer to God. It's really amazing how words put into lyrics made to a song could bring a great impact into so many people's lives, including mine. It all started when I joined Youth for Christ. It has been a great experience but I know there would be better in the future and I'm excited about that. I'm really not a good singer, I swear! But when it comes to worship songs, no doubt, I could be a concert queen ^_^ Not only because I feel like singing but because I know that whenever I sing, the lyrics would go straight to God. Because I'm sure He feels how I feel. Because I have messages in between the lines for Him. Because my voice for sure could be heard. Because my love for Him I know could be felt. Because I know that whenever I raise my hand while singing, I could touch His hands. And that every tears I shed while worshiping Him means a thousand unsaid emotions. Isn't that awesome? Singing for the best man I have ever known. That is also the reason why I listen to it when I'm feeling down, because there is something in the song which I and God could feel mutually, the love, the hope and the assurance that in the end everything will be alright.
